Purpose Driven Life - Day 3

What Drives Your Life?

I observe that the basic motive for success is the driving force of envy and jealousy!
(Ecclesiastes 4:4)

Every one's life is driven by something. Right now you may be driven by a problem, a pressure, or a deadline. You may be driven by painful memory, a haunting fear, or an unconscious belief. There are hundreds of circumstances, values, and emotions that can drive your life.

Here are 5 the most common ones:

• Many people are driven by GUILT. They spend their entire lives running from regrets and hiding their shame. Guilt-driven people are manipulated by memories. They allow their past to control their future. They often unconsciously punish themselves by sabotaging their own success.
• Many people are driven by RESENTMENT and ANGER. They hold on to hurts and never get over them. Instead of releasing their pain through forgiveness, they rehearse it over and over in their minds. Some resentment-driven people 'clam up' and internalize their anger, while others 'blow up' and explode it onto others. Both responses are unhealthy and unhelpful. LISTEN: THOSE WHO HAVE HURT YOU IN THE PAST CANNOT CONTINUE TO HURT YOU KNOW UNLESS YOU HOLD ON TO THE PAIN THROUGH RESENTMENT. Your past is PAST!
• Many people are driven by FEAR. Their fears may be a result of a traumatic experience, unrealistic expectations, growing up in a high-control home, or even genetic predisposition. Regardless of the cause, fear-driven people often miss great opportunities because they're afraid to venture out. Instead they play it safe, avoiding risks and trying to maintain the status quo.
• Many people are driven by MATERIALISM. Their desire to acquire becomes tho whole goal of their lives. This drive to always want more is based on the misconceptions that having more will make me more happy, more important, and more secure, but all three ideas are untrue. Possessions only provide temporary happiness.
• Many people are driven by THE NEED FOR APPROVAL. They allow the expectations of parents or spouses or children or teachers or friends to control their lives. Many adults are still trying to earn the approval of unpleasable parents. Others are driven by peer pressure, always worried by what others might think. Unfortunately, those who follow the crows usually get lost in it.

The benefit of Purpose-driven Living:

• Knowing your purpose gives meaning to your life.
• Knowing your purpose simplifies your life.
• Knowing your purpose focuses your life.
• Knowing your purpose motivates your life.
• Knowing your purpose prepares you for eternity.

Day THREE:

Point to ponder: Living on purpose is the path to peace.

Verse to remember: " You, LORD, give perfect peace to those who keep their purpose firm and put their trust in you." ( Isaiah 26:3)

Question to consider: What would my family and friends say is the driving force of my life? What do I want it to be?

As for me, the driving force that ever driven me: guilt. Being melancholy made me feel guilty easily. Even though sometimes it's not totally my fault, but my heart won't be at ease unless I ask for forgiveness. This might be a story that happened 10 years ago in my life, but I really find it hard to go on, and the guilty feeling kept bugging me, until I said sorry to the person that I've ever hurt. And sometimes, even though I already apologized, I still feel guilty... Hmm.. not an easy thing, huh? I always pray to God, so that I could be freed from the feeling of guity that never run away from me even though I ask God's mercy, I repented already, and I said sorry to the person personally.

The next one is going to be resentment and anger. I'm what Rick said is a 'clam up' and internalize my anger kind of person. I memorized every single hurt deeply, and on the other hand, for the good things, they're not easily remembered in details. Sometimes, feeling tired of this negative attitude, I tried so hard to change myself and transform into a new person. But, the feeling kept going there made me so helpless.

I'm also driven by fear. Being perfectionist made me think of unrealistic expectations. And some traumatic experience also kept bugging me.

As for materialism, I used to have it few years ago. Now, I think I can handle it better.

The need of approval, I also have the tendency trying to please parents and quite worried with what others might think about me.

Having said those things above, I also realized that I've changed in some ways after knowing Jesus Christ personally. Of course, it all takes process and it's not an overnight transformation. God has been so good to me, and until now, He has shown me more ways to get out of the wrong drives that already been controlling myself without realizing it.

Of course had I known it in the first place, it would be better for me if I could focus myself by knowing my purpose of life. Being in the dark for many years and seems all those days were wasted ... But if I think it another way around, I should also realize that it's also the process of getting each steps of the way to find my true purpose in God. I'm grateful that this is the right time that God has already given to me... (-fon-)

Purpose Driven Life - Day 2

You Are Not an Accident

You are not an accident.
Your birth was no mistake or mishap, and your life is no fluke of nature. Your parents may not have planned you, but God did!
He was not all surprised by your birth. In fact, He expected it.
Long before you were conceived by your parents, you were conceived in the mind of God. He thought of you first. It is not fate, nor chance, nor luck, nor coincidence that you are breathing at this moment. You are alive because God wanted to create you!

Day 2:
Point to ponder: I am not an accident
Sometimes it's hard to believe, especially when everything goes wrong and facing some really tough problems, to keep repeating to ourselves that we're not accidentally born in this world...
For some of us, maybe our birth seemed unplanned by our parents. Or in some cases, the parents wanted a baby boy so much , but when you're born you turn out to be a baby girl, or visa versa...
Or so many unlucky things happen in your life, you might wonder, " Does God really want me in this world? And it is not by coincidence that I've been breathing this earth's fresh air everyday?
But the prologue of the 2nd day's reflection from this book, assure me once more that I'm not accidentally landed in this planet called earth in the 1st place. Long longggg ago, before my mom and dad planned on my birth, God has already written my name on His palm... Like What the bible said, " I am your Creator. You were in my care even before you were born." (Isaiah 44:2a)

Verse to remember:
Like what I've mentioned before, " I am your Creator. You were in my care even before you were born. ( Isaiah 44:2a)"

Question to Consider:
Knowing that God uniquely created me, what areas of my personality, background, and physical appearance am I struggling to accept?

By the time I read the question above, I began to think I got lots of areas that I can't accept... Wish they were all better...
But I know and realize as well, I can't choose my race, my origin country, or even my mom who delivered me some decades ago in this world. There's nothing I can do, except accepting it as God's plan for me.
And also for physical appearance, maybe I got some minor complaints - you know girl thing haha- never satisfied with their own appearance, even a top model like Heide Klum must have her own struggle accepting her Goddess-alike look... Coz' no woman will ever satisfy with their own appearance, you know...:)
Maybe it's about my height, my weight, my face, my hair, the color of my eyes... I'll try to be thankful for what I am... Because I wasn't built by God recklessly, but on the other hand, He has shown me more care than I could ever thought of. He planned every detail of me... And I must be thankful since I'm perfect, meaning that I don't have any handicap. I can see, I can hear, I can talk, I can walk... Should be thankful rather than keep complaining... A walk of faith starts with the attitude of giving thanks...
God, help me to accept what I can't change, and give me the courage to change whatever I'm able to change in You. Amen (-fon-)

Purpose Driven Life - Day 1

It All Starts with God...

I've got this book maybe around 2 years already- a friend's gift, but this Christmas just got the real chance to read it, and really ponder on it. Because now I got plenty of time to read, to think, to reflect and to write...

The writer of this book, Rick Warren, gave a reflective question, at the front page of this book, WHAT ON EARTH AM I HERE FOR?
So, the journey itself is to find the real symphony of life which is in line with the arranger, God Himself!

Each day will have its own point to reflect, verse to remember, and question to consider...
I found myself a little bit lazy to write down my diary, and since blogging has made a wonderful change in this world, so here I am, try to write down whatever my thoughts are during the 40 days reading this book, as well as try to commit myself to write down the thoughts, the insights that I've got, and the most important thing, is to synchronize my melody of life with God's composition...

Day One:
Point to ponder: It's not about me.
Like what Rick wrote in his book..." The purpose of your life is greater than your own personal fulfillment, your peace of mind, or even your happiness. It's far greater than your family, your career, or even your wildest dreams and ambitions. If you want to know why you were placed on this planet, you must begin with God. You were born by his purpose and for his purpose."

I just remembered, how many times in my life, I always become the queen, I am the centre, I am the most important thing in my own life. What the teenager said is like a narcissistic behaviour ( Wikipedia said: Narcissism describes the character trait of self love.
The word is derived from a Greek myth. Narcissus was a handsome Greek youth who rejected the desperate advances of the nymph Echo. As punishment, he was doomed to fall in love with his own reflection in a pool of water. Unable to consummate his love, Narcissus pined away and changed into the flower that bears his name, the narcissus.)

For quite some time, maybe this kinda behaviour ever occurs in our life, and not to mention my own life. Me, myself, is the centre of the universe... Maybe in the middle of adversities that happened, I can see that God exists, I understand His Existence is without a doubt is so real. In the middle of the Yogya's quake, in the middle of Aceh's tsunami, in the middle of flood in Malaysia, in the dying of my relative, I know it's unavoidable, and me--my bigself in my mirror can not do a single thing to change that. I'm small, I'm not the centre of the universe, even in my own universe... God is the leading actor, not me... I only take a small tiny role in this film... It's not me, it's You, God!

What if the condition is contrarian to the 1st one that I mentioned above?
Most of the time when I'm happy and successful, what usually I do? Who is the 1st one that I thanked when I got my bonus, when I got a raise in my salary? Do I realize it from God, the source of everything I have and it's only because of His Generousity?
Or it's the same old song played over and over again, it's me againnnn! I'm so damn good in doing those things... I'm very smart, I'm very capable, and not to mention I'm talented...

Well, it's not an easy thing to really make," It's not about me," come true in this daily life...*sigh*
But, I need to try -at least starting today- knowing that I gotta get out of my boring narcissism and surrender it to the Lord. I'm nothing without Him, I will be lost without Him.

Verse to Remember:
Everything got started in him and find its purpose in him... (Collosians 1:16b)
I need to bring back to the way it used to be, how it should be started in the first place. It's all starting in Him, and of course it should be back to His very own track to live my life to the fullest...

Question to Consider:
In spite of all the advertising around me, how can I remind myself that life is really about living for God, not myself?
God, please teach me to concentrate more on You and less of me, so that I could really understand what you want me to do in this life... I'd like to try the very best to live for you, and not only for myself... Let me change my old fashion way of thinking who might be out of date and please renew me... Amen...(-fon-)

Religius tapi duniawi??

Dear all...
Udah sekian lama gak nulis. Sebetulnya ada beberapa ide yang nunggu untuk dituliskan, tapi emang kadang kalo mood blm muncul sementara deadline kerjaan tulis-menulis yang aku commit udah dateng, g jg gak bisa bilang apa2... Tugas dulu donk hehe..

Pernah g dibilangin sama satu orang temen g. Kalo dia itu religius sekaligus duniawi... Maksudnya apa ya??Mungkin temen g lbh menekankan ke arah bahwa dia religius tapi dia funky... Tentunya gak ada maksud apa pun dari dia bilang soal duniawi itu kecuali ke-funky-annya n ikutan trend yang ada sekarang, plus dibatasi tentunya oleh religiusitasnya dia... Itu yang terlihat oleh mata g, semoga emang bener begitu adanya hehe...

Eniwei, yang g liat trend terakhir2 ini malahan beda banget. Dari apa yg g baca di detik.com or kompas.com ~krn emang bisanya mengakses dari internet doang~ g malah melihat tendensi 'religius tapi duniawi' yang bener2 menyimpang. Religiusitas seolah merupakan topeng doang biar terlihat baik di hadapan sesama, tapi kenyataannya nggak dijalankan sama sekali, malahan keduniawian yang ambil alih dalam kehidupan mereka. Kalo udah begini, mungkin kita bertanya, apakah ada gunanya mereka terlihat bagus di mata dunia, sementara Tuhan yang punya mata extra tahu apa yang mereka perbuat???

Case 1:
YZ --- Maria E.
Sempet jadi headline di beberapa negara termasuk Singapore. Yang jg lumayan mengezutkan krn sang politisi adalah Kepada Bidang Kerohanian dan kalo kemudian terjebak dengan kasus rekaman video yang tersebar sedang melakukan kegiatan asusila. Mungkin kita wonder yah... gimana juga dengan religiusitasnya?? Dipertanyakan tentunya...

Case 2:
Ferry S --- kekasih artis Alda
Baru baca sebentar di detik. com bahwa sang pacar dari artis malang yang terbunuh baru2 ini di satu hotel di Jakarta, ternyata menyimpan narkoba di rumahnya n ternyata lagi dia jg merupakan seorang biksu... Memang kasus ini belum terselesaikan, masih merupakan misteri... Namun, lagi-lagi kita dihadapkan dengan kenyataan bahwa religiusitas ataupun kerohanian yang ditampilkan, bukanlah merupakan apa yang sebenarnya dijalankan...

So gimana donk kita harus bersikap dengan itu semua?
Mungkin reaksi marah, mengecam, kecewa bisa terjadi tatkala kita mendengar kalo ada seorang role model, even itu seorang aktivis keagamaan ataupun rohaniwan/wati yang berlaku amat tidak sesuai dengan peranannya yang rohani malah sebaliknya menampilkan keduniawian yang bahkan lebih daripada orang yang tidak religius sama sekali?
( Mungkin ada di antara kita yang kenal orang-orang biasa, yang jarang melakukan aktivitas religius, namun melakukan hal-hal yang diajarkan oleh ajaran agama... dan kita pun bertanya2 apa jenis orang seperti ini yang lbh baik ketimbang orang yang disebut di atas? )

Membuat kita sementara goncang dengan kejadian2 begini?? Rasanya gak perlu yah... tetaplah melakukan apa yang menjadi bagian kita, n tetaplah setia tentunya... Soalnya emang neh, kata kitab Matius 7:15-23, emang bakal ada pengajaran sesat, yang bahkan udah diprediksi jauhhh sebelumnya, around 2000 years ago...

Matius 7:15-23
7:15
"Waspadalah terhadap nabi-nabi palsu yang datang kepadamu dengan menyamar seperti domba, tetapi sesungguhnya mereka adalah serigala yang buas.
7:16
Dari buahnyalah kamu akan mengenal mereka. Dapatkah orang memetik buah anggur dari semak duri atau buah ara dari rumput duri?
7:17
Demikianlah setiap pohon yang baik menghasilkan buah yang baik, sedang pohon yang tidak baik menghasilkan buah yang tidak baik.
7:18
Tidak mungkin pohon yang baik itu menghasilkan buah yang tidak baik, ataupun pohon yang tidak baik itu menghasilkan buah yang baik.
7:19
Dan setiap pohon yang tidak menghasilkan buah yang baik, pasti ditebang dan dibuang ke dalam api.
7:20
Jadi dari buahnyalah kamu akan mengenal mereka.
7:21
Bukan setiap orang yang berseru kepada-Ku: Tuhan, Tuhan! akan masuk ke dalam Kerajaan Sorga, melainkan dia yang melakukan kehendak Bapa-Ku yang di sorga.
7:22
Pada hari terakhir banyak orang akan berseru kepada-Ku: Tuhan, Tuhan, bukankah kami bernubuat demi nama-Mu, dan mengusir setan demi nama-Mu, dan mengadakan banyak mujizat demi nama-Mu juga?
7:23
Pada waktu itulah Aku akan berterus terang kepada mereka dan berkata: Aku tidak pernah mengenal kamu! Enyahlah dari pada-Ku, kamu sekalian pembuat kejahatan!"

Bukan maksud g menghakimi orang-orang tersebut di atas. Namun, sebagai bahan peringatan kita juga, bahwa hal terpeleset, tergelincir, bisa terjadi dalam hidup semua orang. Kita, semua rohaniwan/wati ataupun aktivis keagamaan. Yang pada akhirnya menentukan adalah bagaimana relasi kita dengan Allah, sejauh mana kita mengamalkan apa yang kita ketahui, apa yang kita baca dan dengar dari ayat2 kitab suci...
Teori n praktek adalah 2 hal yang berbeda. G mungkin cenderung idealis dalam hal ini, tentunya menginginkan kesempurnaan dan keselarasan antara perkataan dengan perbuatan. Namun pada kenyataannya, alangkah sulitnya! Ditambah lagi penyusupan nabi-nabi palsu yang juga makin marak belakangan ini, mengajarkan kita untuk sadar dan dengan kesadaran itu pulalah kita menanti buah-buah yang dihasilkan, dari situlah kita tahu kebenarannya...

Bagaimana dengan diri kita sendiri? G merasa kalo sebaiknya g juga tetap mengamalkan semua yang udah g ketahui, dengan keterbatasan dan kemanusiawian g jg tentunya. Tapi semoga g tidak melakukan hal yang betul2 menyimpang dari Allah, it was the last thing on my mind...
G gak mau ah menjadi orang yang berseru-seru, Tuhan... Tuhan saja, namun g mau melakukan kehendak Bapa di Surga. G mau tetep ingat even nggak ada orang yang melihat perbuatan g, tapi Mata Tuhan mampu menembusi semua rahasia yang ada... Tak ada yang tersembunyi di matanya...
Ajar aku Tuhan untuk berbuat sesuai kehendakMu... Amen...

Jakarta, 19 Des 2006
~fon~

I don't like Cinpur...vs I like Cinpur??

I don't like Cinpur... Mungkin itu kata-kata yang sering g ungkapkan duluuuu banget pas g sempet kerja di satu Singaporean Company di Jakarta. Boss g yang serta merta berasal dari negeri seberang itu, bikin g sempet ketakutan... Padahal posisi g n dia berbeda jauh, tapi sempet satu kali di saat g harus izin pada saat dia mau meeting, dia marah besar lho, waktu itu g sempet mengikuti nasihat atasan langsung g untuk minta izin last minute aja, tak disangka tak dinyana g kena damprat n disuruh pergi juga sih ke tempat kursus g kalo gak salah yah... tapi g pergi dengan be te n sedikit trauma... Galak amat sehhh??

Sebetulnya pengalaman langsung lain gak ada sehh, maksudnya awal mula rasa ketidaksukaan g dengan Cinpur alias Cina Singapore ini...Tapi di kantor lama g jg sempet g melihat sepak terjang boss g yang lain, another Cinpur yang gak jujur n suka asal enaknya sendiri, so... hanya karena melihat 2-3 org cinpur seperti itu dan mendengar cerita orang tentang betapa kia su (gak mau kalah or gak mau ruginya) Cinpur itu, g udah mengambil konklusi n kasarnya....menghakimi... Not a good attitude, tapi apa boleh buat itu sempat terpatri beberapa waktu lamanya...

Setelah g pindah ke satu local company, g pikir g bakal terbebas dari Cinpur. Tapi ternyata client yang g handle lagi2 Cinpur... Oh my God deh... Kebayang langsung betapa sulitnya berurusan sama mereka, gak mau rugi lagi orang-orangnya... Hari-hari g jadi lbh sulit dilalui krn harus berhadapan dengan Cinpur...

Long long time ago...
When I was in my Primary School...
G pernah berpikir kalo emang Singapore itu tempat fave g... Karena deket, n memungkinkan untuk disinggahi dari Palembang, tanpa modal gede.... Kalo ke Eropa kan even though pengen, tapi nggak affordable lah yaw... tau diri donk eke hehe...
Lagian pas SD juga g pernah mengidolakan banget bintang sinetron Singapore, kan g nonton film seri lewat video sewaan gitu... G suka yang namanya Lie Nan Xing... Wah itu sih rasanya bener2 idola g deh, exactly tampangnya seperti apa yang g idam2kan... Tingginya 177cm, ganteng, muka rada kotak gitu, pokoknya PASSS deh...
Jadi when I was small, pernah jg sih g sukaaaa banget kalo nggak tergila2 ma seorang cinpur... So, pernah juga ada satu masa dalam hidup g di mana g suka Cinpur....

Jadi sebenernya gimana donk??
G jg gak tau persisnya, kapan yah perasaan suka itu menjadi tidak suka. Mungkin ketika awalnya g bermimpi, dalam angan2 masa kecil g, begitu gantengnya si Nan Xing, begitu indahnya Spore yang g lihat dari film2 drama yang g tonton...
Tapi seketika g dihadapkan dengan kenyataan2 sehubungan dengan the real Singaporean, rasa tidak suka mulai berakar dalam diri g...

Eniwei, mimpi pun gak kebayang kalo g akhirnya bisa tinggal di Spore... G menenggelamkan semua impian g n berusaha realistis dengan kenyataan hidup. G kerja n menikah di Jakarta. Tapi siapa nyana, g ikutan suami pindah ke negeri ini...
Cinpur, gak semua galak... Gak semua baik... Sama aja kayak Indo... Mungkin kerasnya hidup n ekonomi bikin persaingan di sini amat ketat... Dan orang-orang sulit menjadi ramah...
Di jalan pas g n mertua jalan sore di jogging track, kalo kami berpapasan dengan Cinpur, banyak yg cuek, even kata mertua g mereka ketemu tiap hari...Cuek2 aza tuh...

Tapi lalu g berpikir, apakah yang cuek itu gak baik? Nggak tau jg sih sebetulnya... Sometimes g jg kagak mau tlalu sering dicampurin urusan pribadi g. Puzinggg... Krn pernah saat g bekerja jg, ada satu lingkungan yang pernah g rasakan sptnya sangat ramah, tapi satu sisi sangat mau tau urusan orang lain yang end upnya jadi biang gossip semua...
Ramah could be good kalo nggak menyertakan ke-kepo-an (mau tau urusan oranggg aja-fon-) di dalamnya.

Eniwei... G rasa g gak boleh tlalu nge-judge semua Cinpur baik... Sama spt nge-judge semua Cinpur jahat... G merasa terkadang Tuhan terus melatih g dengan memberikan hal-hal yang g gak suka, tapi g harus hidup di dalamnya... Terkadang g emang extreme. Suka ya suka, nggak ya nggak... Tp gak semua sejelek yang dipikir n g merasa diajar sekali lagi untuk menjadi lebih obyektif... Banyak kesalahan terjadi karena subyektifitas g pribadi yang gak selalu bener, malah kadang banyak salahnya...

Like or Dislike, menyangkut pilihan pribadi juga...Smoga g bisa belajar untuk gak menghakimi orang sebegitu dini. Karena biar gimana tokh Cinpur jg manusia hehe... Yah, gimana baiknya aza buat g, krn g udah hidup di sini, n so far emang baru masuk minggu ke-2 sehh... So, blm ketemu tlalu banyak Cinpur, paling sopir taksi... hehe... Sisanya lbh banyak kontak ma org Indo jg, temen g yang ada di sini...

Learning process to love Cinpur more mulai berjalan neh... Yah, harus lebih obyektif lah yaw....
Ok, I'll try...

PS: Lie Nan Xing udah lebih tua n udah gak seganteng dulu lagi lho, g sempet liat dia di film seri TV yg lagi ditayangkan: A Million Treasure... Emang things changed hehe...

From Stockbroker to Ibu RT...

Masih terasa hari-hari berlalu begitu cepat... Rasanya masih bulan lalu, g kerja di Jakarta n suami bolak-balik Spore. Namun, sekarang begitu cepat berubah, g udah di sini, di Singapore. Di negara yang gak tlalu asing buat gue, tapi juga blm tlalu familiar buat g...

Dari wanita karir, sekarang menjadi housewife... Satu perubahan lagi, tapi satu sisi g mensyukuri jg karena kondisi hamil ini membuat g sebaiknya gak tlalu stress kerja. Tentunya kalo g di Jakarta, g bakalan terus kerja sehhh krn kalo nganggur kan malah puzing lho, biasa aktif soalnya... Tapi kalo di sini, mulailah g menjalani perubahan-perubahan peranan g. Lebih menjalani kerjaan rumah, memasak, nyuci piring, nyapu, yang sama sekali gak terbiasa g lakuin...

Anak kos disuruh masak, paling malesss deh... Itu yang terjadi dulu... Tapi kalo makan di luar trus, selain not healthy, lagian choices di sini gak banyak, tiap food court jenis makanannya sama, nggak sebanyak spt di Jakarta... Dan awalnya pas g seminggu waktu lebaran di sini, g merasa makanannya tasteless, jauh banget dibanding spicynya sate padang or nasi padang hmmm hehe...

Akhirnya, balik k dapur juga... Mungkin selama ini hal yang sempet g hindari. Tau sih pentingnya masak, tapi tolong deh, jangan sekarang Tuhan hehe...
Menjelang mo married sm my hubby g juga udah mulai sedikit2 menyentuh alat dapur and mulai masak dikit2 tanpa bimbingan siapa2 paling baca2 buku or internet utk resep masakan...end upnya mentah lagi, krn kerja dan sorenya jg makan utk be-2 mending beli, lebih gak repot...
Now, untunglah Tuhan baik, di bawah bimbingan mertua yang emang jago masak, g mencoba kembali menekuni hal yang kurang g sukain, tapi emang diperluin...yah, masak itu tadi...
Kalo makan sih jangan ditanya... Emang hobby hehe, cuma pas waktu hamil aja gak sehobby sebelumnya...
Terkadang kepikiran, seringkali kita maunya enak n tau beres, tanpa mau tau prosesnya.. (atau mungkin jg krn sibuk banget dgn kerjaan or kegiatan lain sih...) Gimana satu makanan diolah sampe jadi enak gitu... Dengan waktu senggang yang ada, bikin g bisa belajar lebih banyak soal masak, n ngurus rumah...
Bukankah hidup merupakan proses pembelajaran, dan itu berarti termasuk belajar hal-hal yang sepertinya gak pernah g sentuh sebelumnya tapi perlu buat hidup g n keluarga g nantinya...?

Mungkin ada baiknya g tetep nge-flow aja dengan segala perubahan yang terjadi ini, tokh dari dulu g gak pernah nganggep remeh kerjaan ibu RT n nganggap sebetulnya kerjaan ibu RT itu karir jg lho... Bukan satu hal yang sepele, untuk nge-gedein anak dengan bener n jadi anak baik di dunia yang kejammm n mengerikann seperti sekarang ini...

Ok d, that's all for today... G akan belajar menikmati peran ibu RT ini...

My First Blog Ever!

Never had a blog before... Rada ketinggalan zaman seh sebetulnya, but who cares anyway? hehe... Kesibukan kerja di broker bikin g almost gak punya waktu utk nulis2 di blog, even itu mungkin yang ingin g lakuin, but anyway there's a saying, Untuk segala sesuatu di bawah langit ini ada waktunya... so maybe this is the right time for me... :)
Yah... mungkin inilah waktunya yang tepat untuk g, di saat g pindah ke Spore n dlm kondisi pregnant, mengakibatkan g gak bs terlalu aktif kerja or anything, tapi tnyata mungkin in some ways ini ngebuat g bs lbh konsentrasi *gaya Dedy Cobuzier* untuk nulis n mengembangkan bakat2 terpendam g lainnya, taelaaaa...hihihi...
Since the baby is coming my way, early next year, mungkin jg ini adalah saat terbaik untuk beristirahat sejenak dari kesibukan stock market yang udah g lakonin kurang lbh10 taon, gedebak gedebuk dengan stock di Jakarta Stock Exchange bikin sport jantung jg sih, n di sela-sela kesibukan itu lah g menulis beberapa pemikiran g yang sempet g publish di email pribadi g... Selain komitmen pelayanan di Literature Ministry bareng Riko dkk di Kepemudaan BPK KAJ, rasanya g udah mulai ninggalin hingar bingar band yang bikin g dekat dengan dunia pelayanan... Now, things have changed, but one thing yang harus tetep g pertahankan yaitu rasa syukur g